This site is dedicated to my half-sister, Kathy, whose death was the end of her struggle with the abuse of her own childhood.

My sister,  troubled and plagued with the nightmare memories of her abuse, spent her life trying to atone for her stepmother's insanity against her.  She, in her own way, tried to correct an injustice of pain and suffering in others life, that was never corrected in her own life.  She gave of herself to her family and community, despite the demons that plagued her private moments.  Her choice to end her life left an indelible mark upon my own, helping to end my own cycle of self-destruction. I grieve for the sister I never really got to know or be there to help when she needed it. Had the abuse she suffered not been locked away in the family closet; something only talked about in low whispers perhaps more could have been done. For we shared this secret and could have helped each other through to recovery. 

Kathy, I wish I could have held you when the demons rose and chewed away the last of your defenses.  I wish I could have offered you one more moment of hope to sustain you.  I will miss you every day I breathe and live to survive.

Kathy

When the nights begin to cool

And the full moon comes

Nearer to the earth

As if to kiss the lush landscape

With silverleaf blessings

Of sweet nights dew.

Then my mind turns more to you

And my heart fills with

A soft sweet sorrow.

Time has passed slowly

And I have tucked my grief

Into a safe place in my heart.

Only now at the turning of the leaves

Do soft tears again fall

With sorrow at the years of missing you

And not fully knowing you.

I whisper your name and allow my regrets

To acknowledge you presence

Always silently influencing

My own fight against

The demon that took

Your life.

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